I don't like to do it, ask for help that is.
It makes me admit my weaknesses. It requires me to be vulnerable. But for some reason God continues to require me to do so.
This morning I sat down and came to God with the goal of "getting" something from him, in order to help someone else and make them "happy" or "fulfilled".
Then an overwhelming amount of guilt and shame welled up... "Where in the heck did that come from???"... I could not concentrate... so I started to pray... more overwhelmingness, more feelings of inadequacy, more fear, more AHHHHH!!!
I NEED TO TAKE A WALK... (as I was walking I realized...)
Okay, so I need to ask for help.
I called a friend and we prayed. It is amazing how God continues to speak truth to his people through each other. Its amazing how often I need to learn that I can't, nor is it my job, to please everyone.
Thank you friend for praying!
Thank you God for listening!
Thank you Holy Spirit for moving!
Freedom and blessings abound when we listen and respond to what God whispers to our hearts.