Last week I struggled a lot with doubt, uncertainty, fear, anger, etc. I attribute part of it to having too much time on my hands to think, but a lot of it has to do with the amount of suffering and depravity that I am learning more about in our world and the desire for God to fix it. Another part has to do with really questioning my faith and if, as a Christian, I have something to offer others... what type of hope do I profess? how is my life different because I follow Jesus? For some reason I was having a hard time answering those questions...
I think I lost a little perspective.
Today I sat quietly and reflected on Jeff's message from Sunday. (It was about the Lord's prayer). I only made it through the first line of the prayer and felt a soft whisper just to stay in that moment... Here is where I am:
Daddy, you care about me, you desire for me to rest, you want me to curl up in your arms, protection, comfort, peace, love, strength, you wipe my tears, you heal my soul...
"You dance over me, while I am unaware, you sing all around and I never hear a sound. Lord I'm amazed my you..."
Who art in heaven, hallowed be your name.
What in the heck does it mean to be Holy? Can I even conceptualize that?
It took me back to this song.
I reflected on the words for a while. I take comfort in them.
What is your view of God today?